Half Empty

Ive been out of the service for a while now. I'm addicted to benzos now too. Joy. My new bf (B) got pissed when he saw i ordered a scale off of amazon. Its great though. I'm begging a 3 day fast tomorrow. I am in love with someone else and he doesn't want to do anything with me. i feel dead. Ate 2 c coral and salad mix today, as well as a bottle of propel. I cant seem to stop smoking pot either. So basically I'm a mess.. Rather lonely.