Half Empty

Ive been out of the service for a while now. I'm addicted to benzos now too. Joy. My new bf (B) got pissed when he saw i ordered a scale off of amazon. Its great though. I'm begging a 3 day fast tomorrow. I am in love with someone else and he doesn't want to do anything with me. i feel dead. Ate 2 c coral and salad mix today, as well as a bottle of propel. I cant seem to stop smoking pot either. So basically I'm a mess.. Rather lonely.

Status Update

Ive been a civilian for a few months now, and am using my gi bill at WNMU. Things have been somewhat chaotic, and i cant sleep. For the past 4 days ive only consumed apples and diet dr pepper. I need to lose more weight...quickly. Any suggestions? I've set a goal to be down to 100 by march. SOS.

Sick as a Dog

I have another cough...my chest is burning...sore throat. Woo-hoo. There Is a silver lining to very cloud though_ this gives me an excuse to fast with out any raised eyebrows. Which is nice considering I went drinking last night ( a vice of mine) and alcohol as a ton of calories...I already feel fatter.
So its gonna be tea, hot tea, and more hot tea...
I'm about to make some jasmine tea, finish up my laundry, do some yoga, take a hotshower.

XoxXO.
Muah

Today SUCKED

I have another cough...I'm prone to upper respitory infections. Was reading through some of my discharged pprwrk. That shrink wrote everything...I mean everything down. Shit. Lol. Apparently my "severe calorie restriction is not condusive to the fleet. Fuck it. I am haveing an orbidly obese day. Need to go to the gym. Ate cucmbers, a peppermint patty, and had three big sugar free redbulls. I'm a pig.

Arrrg

Today was stressful. Went to legal...should be out in about three weeks. Ate about 1,200 calories of random shit. I hate myself. Tomorrow is a no cal day.

Fast Day One

its 5:36 am...gaaah
I am currently sipping on a diet pepsi max...feeling, bloated. Fuck
Will make myself a cup of the "fasting" tea in an hour or so..
also my goal before 9 am is to have done 100 situps.
XoxOxoXO

7:30 am:
Came back from medical...
Doing some laundry and making a cup of Yogi Tea (fasting)
had two pieces of Extra gum...shit (fucked up already...)

9:54 pm:
Made it through today without eating..YAY! Feeling kinda weak though, and cheated and drank some Nyquil so stomach cramps wont keep me up.
Bought my self a 12-pack of sugar free Red Bull to stay motivated tommorow.

XoXo
G'Night for now
-Jane

Popping the Blog Cherry!

Hello There,
To begin I will tell you a bit about myself...
I am 22, and I'm in the US NAVY. Blahh.
I'm waiting on discharge...getting an admin med sep because of my so called "eating disorder."
I refuse to get any bigger...even if the us government wants me too..
It's been rather stressful actually. I haven't broken the news to my family...ugg. The most infuriating thing is that I'm not even within the criteria of a so-called anorexic. I plan to be though..lmao. I plan to begin a five day liquid fast tommorow...I need something to lift my spirits. Ha.
The Game Plan:
Tea
Diet Pepsi
Coffee (black with sweet n low)
H2O

I'm excited because I slipped up this past weekend...got drunk (lots of cals in booze...another problem of mine...lol) and ate pasta. Fucking pasta. What was I thinking. Hopefully going to the gym as well...have to stir up some motivation for that one.
I bought some new tea (I HEART TEA BTW) at Wal*MART last week...it's a yogi tea called Fasting...its supposed to help supress appetite, raise metabolism...etc.

Will keep you posted on my progress...god knows I need some.
XoXO

Jane